The Struggle

Today marks two weeks since I found out my 31 week old unborn son was dead. Today I also watched this video that was posted on Facebook (Click here for Video). The results were amazing, I had so hopped for the same results. Yet I didn’t get them. At first I was angry and emotional…

Seven Years of Bliss?

It’s our seventh year anniversary today. Many people that have read Our Story (Click Here) would think we rode off into the sunset and into a life of one miracle after another hmmm …… we will get back to that. Before diving into our seven years of bliss how did we celebrate this year? Over…

Not Forsaken

When we left the hospital Monday night I felt a sense of abandonment for my son Elisha. I struggled to leave our beautiful little boy in the hands of a nurse knowing it would be the last time I held him. Over the last seven months there were many times I shared my love and…

16 Hours Later and Not Much Closer

Bruce and I arrived at Valley Medical hospital in Renton at 3pm yesterday. They did another ultrasound but still didn’t see or hear a heart beat. Wanted to sob but didn’t seem to have it in me just looked at it numbly. So the process started and at first things were looking like they might…

Faith as Small as a Mustard Seed

Tonight as I toss and turn trying to go to sleep knowing that tomorrow there is a high probability I will be delivering my dead 31 week old son I am reminded that Jesus says we can have faith as small as a mustard seed and He answers us. So with so many of you…

Still Praying For Healing

It’s been over 24 hours since we found out our 31 week old son does not have a heartbeat. It feels so surreal. We went in for prayer at our church’s prayer meeting tonight and was reminded that even in the midst of our pain there are many people experiencing pain….. It could be easy…

Do You Ever Wonder Why?

Today we found out that our 31 week old unborn son is dead. I went in for the normal pregnancy check up to find out things were not so normal. Why? The doctors have no clue….. He was moving yesterday and yet today he’s gone….. Bruce and I had had a very hard time deciding…